I don't have too many projects! I don't...

Ok so I know that I'm supposed to be finishing my pink sweater and everything but I REALLY want a steampunk hat.  Now that I know what this stuff is and realize that there are others like me who have always been fascinated with the industrial revolution and such I want to put myself out there as a fellow supporter.  I have always been steampunk I just didn't know there was a name for it and now that I do I want to fully embrace it all.  (I wear things on my sleeve, or my backpack if you knew me in high school,) I love it and I want something obvious to wear around and display it.  So I decided on a hat, (like I don't already own about 47 hats,) and I want a top hat like bowler crossbreed because I think that is what will look best on me but here's the thing; I want it in purple.  Or possibly navy but like a Sapphire kind of navy.  I want a jewel tone anyway,  some nice deep eggplanty blueish purple top hat hybrid thing.  So where do I find that?  I don't I make it and that is why I just want to throw all my other projects aside and make myself my lovely hat that will not go with anything I own at the end of it.  Pretty sweet eh?  Also I finally got some hours at work so I will have even less time than usual to do it in.  Awesome right?  On the other hand getting hours means that I will have the money to pay for the supplies that I need to make my special hat.  It's a vicious circle.  So yeah,... I think I need to head to Windsor today and see if I can't find my perfect color in lamb's pride maybe, (so I can felt it when I'm done,) so I can whip up my patternless hat and dig myself a little deeper into this hole I've been working on for quite some time.  HA! and I think I might crochet it too!  (I am NOT a good crocheter,) oh I've gone off the deep end, anyone feel like saving me?

P.S. I finally got a real wrist brace thingy so my hand is actually doing better woot.

Everyone said 2009 would be better...

Ok so I got the call this morning that I got the job at Logan airport that I interviewed for last week and I am so unbelievably happy that I can hardly sit still!  I mean fuck, I got fired in July and had one four hour temp job since it's about fucking time you know?  Also Arisia was a complete blast, maybe the best year ever; I met up with some people that I hung out with last year and actually gave them my info for once, (I was very generous with my business cards this time,) and I met a bunch of new people that I fully intend to hang on to for life or longer.  Things are looking good so far.  I start my job tomorrow which is awesome but sucks because I still haven't quite recovered from all the late nights at the con but I also haven't slept in my own bed since Thursday so that might have something to do with it.  Also I am now kind of in love with Steampunk and I already have several hair and jewelry designs floating around in my head which of course I want to run out and get started on right now but I am doing no more crafting until my hand starts working again.  I am wrapping it up tonight and I am not unwrapping it until I can move my goddamned wrist without flinching!  I am however going to throw everything that didn't sell at the con up on Etsy like, right fucking now and hopefully we will all recoup the expenses from the hotel and supplies.  BTW big huge thanks to Dawna and Lily for helping out me and Morrigan with the shop at the con I don't know what we would have done with out you!  Love, kisses, and everything wonderful :)

Good night good times...

So last night was the big Sat night rave at Arisia that I have been telling everyone about forever and Morrigan, Dawna, Lily and I all went and ran into our friend Andy from high school and danced the night away.  So yesterday was pretty good; I sold a couple bracelets, danced till I couldn't stand up anymore and may have also hooked a boy.  I don't expect today to beat yesterday but it would be nice if it tried.  Also since I didn't mention it before I had an interview last Thurs and it went really well I think so God willing I will have a job very soon!  So far so good but I want the job to call and the boy to come reaffirm that he still likes me after last night.  Pray for me man...

Keep breathing keep breathing...

ok so I am currently in a small amount of panic.  I am also currently in the Cambridge Hyatt Regency hotel.  I am sitting in a room with the door propped open with everything I've made in the past few months laid out on a bed waiting for people to come and look at it and possibly buy it.  One bracelet so far and I was very proud of my little bracelet going off into the world all on it's own to be an independent little piece of jewelry but I was also slightly panicked at the thought of letting it go off into the world on it's own; what if I hadn't raised it right?  What if it wasn't ready to leave and was in a emotionally fragile state?  What if I had officially lost my mind?  I guess there's no real way to tell so I should just accept the way things are and move the fuck on... Love from Arisia!

Ok so new year new start...

And all that fun stuff right? Ok so here's the goal; less smoking, less white food, more running. You can't change the world, you can only change yourself. Well I'm behind on that. Or maybe I changed but just not for the better and well I'm done with that; it's time to get my shit together and get going on my grown up life. I am out of school and it's time to start being an adult, (actually it's a bit late but at least I got there within a year.) time to stop being a lazy punkass and do everything I'm always talking about doing. That's one of my other things; I'm an Aries and no one ever knows it, in fact it's usually their last guess. Well not any more, I used to be a pretty blatant Aries and then I got beat down by people and school and everything else. Well I liked being upfront, and confident, and not giving a shit what other people thought and I'm gonna try and get back to that. Also I hacked my hair. I don't know. I really think that sometimes when I go to cut my hair that my hands are possessed by little demons that cut off more than I meant to while I just watch in horror unable to stop them from continuing. I guess that's about it for now, I am going to really have to buckle down to get everything finished for Arisia in two weeks so I may be incoherent for the next few weeks, (like anything could beat my cracktastic Christmas Eve post,) but if you're going to the con look me up and you'll get to see me overtired, broke, and high on sci-fi fumes. What could be more fun. Ok I'm done.